14 Weeks

If you follow me on Instagram or Facebook you already know but in case not I am pregnant! I'm 14 1/2 weeks right now. It's very surreal. We are very excited and still slightly terrified. I can't believe we are going to have a CHILD. ahhhhh! The above picture is Duke and I at 6 years old. So hopefully they get Duke's smile and the rest of my good looks ;)

This is actually my second pregnancy in the last 7 months. I had a miscarriage in November, a few weeks after we arrived in Okinawa when I was 10/11 weeks. It was really sad and hard. But I feel so lucky to have gotten pregnant again a few months later. And to have made it this far! This time around when we saw our little baby on the ultrasound at 11 weeks he/she was moving all around and I just couldn't help but cry. Such a little miracle.

I am also SO INCREDIBLY GRATEFUL to be out of the first trimester. It was a dark time. There were a 3 solid weeks of 24/7 nausea and I couldn't eat or move. I lost 6 lbs pretty quickly and am still trying to put it back on. I still don't love eating, but I can manage a greater range of foods now. I remember trying to find SOMETHING to feed my starving self, so I put some peanut butter on some bread and couldn't get through 1 bite without gagging. After about week 9/10, the nausea came and went, but man...it was so awful. During this time I heard a commercial on the radio for depression and I thought-I have all of those symptoms! Except the sadness. "Do you have loss of appetite? Do you find yourself feeling fatigued and sleeping more? Do you have a loss of interest in activities you use to enjoy?" YES YES YES!! However, it was just pregnancy. Just found it humorous.

Anyways, this has been the reason for my radio silence on this blog the last couple months. It's been a challenge to sit vertically. But I am so excited to be feeling more normal and can't wait until I feel totally normal again...ahh..someday.